For a long time, I didn’t really believe that a relationship with myself could be enough.

I said the words. I did the work. But somewhere deep down, I still felt that until someone truly saw me, truly loved me, I’d always be missing something.

And maybe that’s still partly true—I’m wired for connection. I want to be met.
But something is shifting lately.

I’m learning to listen to my energy as communication from something deeper.
Not just physical tiredness—but feedback from my soul.

  • When I walk the dog and feel lighter—that means something.
  • When I go to the gym and return feeling more myself—that means something.
  • When I tried to force myself into Level 4 and my body shut down, night after night—that meant something too.

At the time, I brushed it off.
Told myself I was anxious, or just overthinking.
But really, it was my soul saying not now.
And now that I’ve listened? I feel lighter. Clearer. More aligned.

I’m starting to live by a quiet compass.

Not productivity. Not pressure.
Just checking in and asking:

“What feels nourishing today?”
“Where do I feel energy rising?”
“What part of me is asking to be heard?”

And I don’t always get it right.
There are still inner conflicts.
But the biggest shift is—I’m letting those parts speak now.
I’m not exiling the child, or silencing the protector.
I’m building a relationship with all of me.

And maybe, in the end, that’s the relationship I’ve always needed most.
Not instead of others. But as the foundation for all of them.

Because when I can be with myself like this—with honesty, with softness, with presence—
I think I’ll find it easier to be with others too.

Not to get something from them.
But to share what I’m already learning to give myself.

One check-in at a time.