Poker, Volume, and Perspective: A Quiet Reminder

I took this photo today — a snapshot of my recent results. It was more than just a graph. It was a reminder of something deeper:

That with enough volume, even the hardest moments soften.

That last jagged edge — the mini downswing — felt huge in real time. It had me questioning things, wondering if I’d lost my edge or if I was pushing too hard. And yet… when I zoom out, when I actually look at the big picture — I see growth. I see that I’ve made money. That I’ve made it through.

It’s been a couple of weeks since the 10k win. And since then, I’ve had a bit of a dry stretch. But today, I made a final table. I made profit. I stuck to my structure. I didn’t over-register. I played well. I trusted the process.

And the graph — well, it’s not just numbers. It’s a reflection of patience. Of thousands of decisions, some painful, some brilliant, all part of a bigger movement toward stability.

What This Teaches Me

• Volume matters. It stretches out the variance and gives context.
• Perspective matters more. Because without it, even a small downswing feels like failure.
• Emotional regulation is edge. The difference between spiraling and showing up is often internal.

This lifestyle isn’t always easy. But this graph today — it gave me a little peace. It reminded me that I am good at this. That I can make a living. That one frustrating week doesn’t define me.

Zoom out. Breathe. Keep playing your game.

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