The Days I Feel Behind
May 31, 2025
Not every day needs to be productive. Some just need to be honest.
Some days I wake up and feel behind before the day even starts.
Behind on messages. Behind on goals. Behind on healing. Like I should already be further along, more put together, more something.
It’s a heavy feeling. A low-level hum of inadequacy that sneaks in quietly.
But I’m learning that these are the days I need softness the most.
Pushing harder doesn’t help. Beating myself up doesn’t create progress. It just deepens the feeling that I’m not enough.
So instead, I check in:
- Have I eaten?
- Have I moved my body?
- Have I connected with anything real?
That’s enough for today. Really. That’s enough.
Because often, what I call “falling behind” is actually just a sign that I’m overdue for gentleness.
And when I meet myself there, with presence instead of pressure, something begins to shift.
Maybe I’m not behind.
Maybe I’m just human.