This Is Enough (For Now)

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Maybe this whole project was never about creating something for anyone else.
Maybe it was always about creating a space for me.
A quiet corner of the internet where I could speak freely, feel what I feel, and connect with myself without needing to prove anything.

And if my son ever wants to know more about who I was — if I’m not around someday — it’s all here. Waiting for him. No pressure. Just presence.

That’s enough.

I don’t need to force this into something bigger right now.
I don’t need to make it serve some huge purpose or help thousands of people.
It’s already helped the one person who needed it most — me.

This project has given me something I didn’t know I needed:
A creative outlet that keeps me grounded.
A space where I don’t have to cope or escape.
A space where everything feels like it’s falling into place — naturally.

And because of that, I feel less pressure with my son.
I’m more honest with him. I don’t feel the need to protect him from everything anymore.
I trust him. I trust that he’ll be okay.

He’s a strong lad.
He’s had me — maybe not perfect, but present. Learning. Regulating. Showing up.
And he’s had his mum too. She’s a pretty good mum, to be honest.

That’s more than I had growing up.
And it’s enough.

This isn’t the end of anything.
But for now, this is enough.
I don’t need to push. I don’t need to prove.

I’m just letting this space hold what it needs to hold — without pressure.

And for the first time in a long time,
That feels like peace.