A quiet realization today:
I’ve been creating something that holds me when nothing else does.
What I’m Noticing
On days when I feel a little dysregulated — when confidence wobbles, when loneliness buzzes under my skin — I turn to my website.
And it steadies me.
Not by distracting…
but by reminding me who I am becoming.
It’s strange and beautiful to discover that something I built out of vulnerability
has become a kind of safety net.
A place that can catch me
when no one else is there to do it.
Why I Think It Matters
For so long, the world taught me that safety comes from people — family, friends, belonging.
But what I’m learning is: I can create structures that support me, even when others can’t.
This site — these words — they reflect the truth I too easily forget when I’m low:
I am growing.
I am showing up.
I am becoming someone who cares for himself.
And if this space someday helps others find that same sense of grounding…
that will only make its purpose even more meaningful.
But it’s already enough
that it helps me.
The Open Question
What happens when the place I’ve built to catch me
also becomes a place where others land gently, too?
I’m still figuring this out…